I’ve been in Church my whole life. I’m no theologian, but I love when I read the same story I’ve read many times before, and God gives me a fresh perspective, or a new insight to take away from the story.
As I read and meditated on the Easter story this week, one part really stood out to me. When Mary Magdalene stood at the tomb crying, because she didn’t know where Jesus’ body had been taken, Jesus was already there. Already well aware of her anguish, He asked, “Woman, why are you weeping?”
The past few years have been a roller coaster of emotions in my life. Bad news. Illness in families. Sin tearing families apart. We talk about “sin in the World” as if it’s exclusive to the World. What hits the hardest is when sin tears into the lives of those you’ve read scripture with. We’re forgiven, yes, but the consequences remain.
I’m going to be open about a big struggle…a sin…of mine.
As Christians, sometimes we like to pat ourselves on the back for not committing the obvious sins, like adultery, lying,stealing…
What about those secret sins? Pride, anger, laziness, gluttony, fear…
Those “secret” sins might not wreck our lives in one weekend, but over a lifetime, they slowly corrode at our souls.
When I catch wind of bad news, my heart breaks for those families. And then fear sets in. Satan likes to put fear into my mind, and I let him do it. It will stop me in my tracks and take my breath away.
“When is my turn coming?”
“What if sin wrecks my family?”
“What if illness affects my household?”
“What if I can’t trust anyone?”
“What if we lose everything?”…
And then I forget, that Jesus is already here, well aware of my anguish. “Woman, why are you weeping?”
Why am I?
Because I’ve let the lies of Satan choke out the promises of God. I’ve let fear give me irrational doubts towards this wonderful Husband God blessed me with. I’ve let fear make me believe that everyone has an angle, and nobody does anything out of pure love. I’ve let the fears of what may or may not happen tomorrow, steal the joy of today. I forget that He’s already there today and tomorrow, for you, for me.
He’s already at that Doctors appointment you dread going to, because you fear what they’ll say.
He’s already at the kitchen table as you go to pay bills tonight, and fear that there’s just not enough to make ends meet.
He’s already at the altar, as you give in to a lifelong struggle with sin, and give it all to Him.
He’s already there.
Does trusting and believing always keep the bad stuff from happening?
But knowing that He’s already there, that I don’t have to face troubles alone and allow fear to ruin my life…He is truly amazing. He loves us so. He sacrificed His life on the cross so many years ago, so that we wouldn’t have to carry the burden of fear. So that we don’t have to live in bondage to the “secret” sins we hide, because pride tells us we’ll look like “bad” Christians if we seek help. So that we can tell Satan where to take his lies.
Can you do me a favor? Please pray for me, as I deal with this lifelong struggle of fear and worry. When you see me acting in fear, remind me that He’s already in my tomorrow. Please know that when I post anything, it’s not because I think I’ve “arrived.” We won’t be there as long as we live in earthly bodies.
I’ve always loved the part of the Easter story where Mary Magdalene finally realized that she was talking to Jesus. I love that she of all people got to see Him first. This week more so than ever. I would’ve loved to have seen her face at the realization that as she stood there weeping for Him, He was already there.
1 John 4:18, “There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear.”
With small children in the house, quiet moments with Jesus can be hard to come by. I was blessed with one of those sweet times this morning before the sun came up.
It’s looking to be an overcast and dreary day, but I was able to catch some pink in there!
I hope you have a blessed Good Friday, reflecting on all that Jesus is. If you haven’t yet given Him your burden of sin, or don’t have a Church home, I’d love to talk to you!